Kids can be so stupid.

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 19:38:10 GMT

Today at school we had a mix it up at lunch which is I guess "sponsored" by GSA.
Me and Stacey were the only ones basically doing it and some kids were so rude I wanted to just bash their face into the wall.
I literally got so upset I threw my stuff at the wall and I mightve broken my camera=/
and I started to cry.
I cut myself last night also.
Got love on my arm,65 on my left thigh and 74 on my right.
Im stuck.
I need to make a deicision and stick with it.
Three options :
1)be with josh
2)be with tim
3) neither of them
and Im somewhat considering the 3rd one...
I mean...
idk.I just want to have a good boyfriend...that not neccessarily commited and I already have expectations for ya know?
<3

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 03:38:38 GMT

I can't live without you.
I had made him my everything.
He ruined my hopes and dreams.
Just for the immature thought of that he wouldnt lose me this time along.

I hear, a voice say "Don't be so blind"
It's telling me all of these things
That you would probably hide!
Am I your one and only desire?
Am I the reason you breathe,
Or am I the reason you cry?

Always, always, always,
I just can't live without you!

I love you!
I hate you!
I can't get around you!
I breathe you,
I taste you!
I can't live without you!
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess then I'm out that door
And now I'm done with you!

(Done with you, done with you, done with you, done with you, done with you)

I feel, like you don't want me around
I guess I'll pack all my things
I'll see you around
It's all, been bottled up till now
As I walk out your door
All I can hear is the sound of

Always, always, always,
I just can't live without you!

I love you,
I hate you,
I can't get around you!
I breathe you,
I taste you,
I can't live without you!
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door
And now I'm done with you.

I love you,
I hate you,
I just can't live without you.

I wrap my hand around your heart,
Why would you tear my world apart?

Always, always, always, always.

I see, the blood all over your hands
Does it make you feel, more like a man?
Was it all, just a part of your plan?
The pistol's shakin' in my hands
And all I hear is the sound!

I love you,
I hate you,
I can't get around you!
I breathe you,
I taste you,
I can't live without you!
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess then I'm out that door
And now i'm done with you.

I love you,
I hate you,
I can't live without you!
I love you,
I hate you,
I can't live without you.

Thanks for tearing my world apart Josh.

ecstasyxoxo

Kids can be so stupid.